"A day late and a dollar short," is something my mother used to say. I'm feeling that way about the new year. Today is already the 5th, and now I'm ready to begin it. The day after Christmas, the wreath on our front door, dry and brittle from the western exposure, came down. Out went the gingerbread village that had a thin layer of dust coating its sugary rooftops. However, other than those two things, I wasn't ready to let go of Christmas. It was a lovely time this year, with our grandchildren to bring back the magic of the season.
I especially loved our tree this year, as did Brooklynn. We would sit in the overstuffed chair next to it and I'd watched her fall asleep, mesmerized by the lights and glistening ornaments.
Finally, yesterday I was ready to let go. She played with her toys on the floor, fingering each one with curiosity and wonder, and I took the decorations off the tree, handling them carefully and wrapping them in tissue to be stored away until next year. By the end of the day, the house was bare of decorations, the tree was ready for Dan and Luke to haul downstairs after supper. A dusting and vacuuming and the house will be back to normal by the end of today.
In thinking about my word for the year, I started by reflecting on last year's word -- Courage. It was a good word that helped me grow in a number of areas. No, I didn't go ziplining, but I stated up front that I wasn't after that kind of bravery. It was more about trusting myself to accomplish a few goals, and having the courage to let go of some things, too.
This year, I was having a hard time coming up with a word, feeling stuck on one that I wanted to work on, but I felt I was trying too hard to make it fit. And then, just this morning, a completely different word came to me as I was reading a morning devotional. Funny how that happens, as soon as the new word fell into my lap, I released my grip on the other.
My word for the year is Clarity. Thoreau said that, "in the long run, we only hit what we aim at." I want to be intentional about starting each day with a prayer that my eyes and ears will be open to what I'm supposed to see and hear. I'll need clarity for the first step in making my other goals come to fruition.
Dan has a saying that I love, when he describes my habit of starting a project in the middle, just to get something going. "Ready, fire, aim. . . " he says. It makes me laugh, but it's so true at times. In 2016, I'm going to work on getting seeing things more clearly before I go firing off.
Happy New Year everyone.