Sunday, May 20, 2007

Sunday musings

Yesterday's post was all about whining. Or, worst yet, wallowing in "poor me," which is a total lack of faith. I was brought up short by a very loving and caring comment posted by Becky, one of my first friends in Blogland. She left a comment on my Art Benches post, because, oddly enough yesterday's post had the "comments" turned off. I swear, I didn't consciously do that -- but, I was feeling very much like writing and running, so I'm glad Becky caught up with me.

One of the things I love about blogging, and that came as such a surprise to me, is the number of people I've met who are able to witness their strong faith in God. I admire that, and am drawn to those blogs where faith is so much a part of people's lives, that witnessing in their blog is as natural as breathing.

My faith has always been a big part of my life -- well, sometimes not so big, but God has always been there for me. I am a Catholic. It's only been in the last 20 years that we've been told it's okay to sing really loud in church, and in the last ten years that we hold hands during the Our Father. Some of us are still rather stoic in our worship.

The interesting thing about yesterday, is that after I posted, I read a chapter from Joanna Weaver's Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World. It was all about this lack of faith that I was feeling yesterday. The chapter is called, "Lord, don't you care?" and she talks about the 'three deadly Ds'. How distraction from God, leads to discouragement which leads to doubt. I shoulda read the book, before I wrote the post, but you know what? That's what blogging can be all about. I pour out the yucky stuff sometimes, and I get wonderful, heartfelt comments from a friend, who also put me on to another author in Beth Moore.

When I started blogging, it didn't occur to me that God would slip into it and use it as a tool for me to know him better, and to keep nudging me to keep him front and center in my life. It is not by accident that my blogging friends are such God-filled women. I seek them out and I want to learn from them. And when they respond with such heartfelt thoughts and caring, I know I'm in the right place.

One more thought, before my family yells at me one more time that it's time to leave. I wish I could remember the exact quote and reference, but it goes something like this: A sign of true character is being the same person with everyone you meet. I find myself meditating on that a lot lately. I'm tired and weary of hiding my light under a bushel basket. Perhaps that is where some of my frustration has been. More on that later. I hear car doors slamming and they're going to leave me behind!


Susie said...

Hi Karen,
I just stopped in to say hi after I saw your comment at Becky's. Hope you're having a wonderful day. Cherish the special moments with your children. They pass by in a heartbeat (and then you get to cherish them with your grandchildren)

Becky said...

Oh, Karen, I am crying for you right now. I really am. Your heart is so open to what God wants to do in your life and I am so privileged to watch it, as we all are in this out-in-the-open world of Blogland.

I had such second thoughts after posting that comment. I went on my way to church praying for you and wondering if I should have been so bold. But I gotta tell you, friend, our God is so concerned about the heart. And He is all about filling it up so we never feel empty, no matter our circumstances or lack of them. And because He has done that for me so many times, I want that so badly for you.

So ... I will continue to pray and continue to watch as you become the person God created you to be. Love ya!

Karen said...

Hi Karen,
I wanted to comment yesterday, too, but when I came back today, I was glad to read that Becky has it covered! I just love her heart. I will pray for you, too.,

Blessings and Hugs,

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Tristi Pinkston said...

Hey Karen,

I think Becky pretty much covered it. Good for you to be so bold, Becky!

There were a couple of comments I wanted to make about your "negative" blog, Karen -- first of, you said you saw a glimpse of what you "fear" your life is. Fear doesn't come from God. If you're having feelings of fear, that's a time to turn to God and ask Him to take those feelings away. He will do it.

Secondly, and you may shoot me for this, but your moment of "clarity" may actually be a blessing in disguise. You say you saw yourself as overweight, your kids need to be reined in, and your house is a mess. You know what -- a whole lot of people live in denial and so they never make changes. You've identified some things that you'd like to change, and now that you've made that identification, you'll have the power to make some changes. How awesome is that! Tap into the power that comes from asking God for help. Ask Him to take away the fear, replace it with strength, and help you make the changes you want to make. And then do it with hope, not beating yourself up about any failings.

You're going to be great, Karen. Hang in there and remember where all good things come from.

Barbara said...

Dear Karen, it's so good to come across an honest and open heart. God never fails us when we are honest and open with Him. Looks like you are coming to the end of yourself which is the best place to be in. Believe me I have been there andknow that it is the beginning of wisdom, the beginning of freedom and the beginning of a new life in Him. You are going to be amazed at the goodness of God as you rest in Him, recognising where you are at, taking no condemnation for it, but looking to God to turn things around as you TRUST YOUR LIFE TO HIM, knowing that you cannot do it, only He can, and will, just ask Him. Love Barbara PS Will be praying for you.

Christie Belle said...

I just love Becky too:) And you! It is so neat how sometimes God chooses to work through certain people and even blogging! I am so glad that He put what you needed right in your path with the book and Becky's words. God bless,

P.S. Hope you didn't get left!!!

LZ Blogger said...

I love the look of your blog with its picket fence. How truly peaceful looking! ~ jb///